Identity

35 years of life and I still struggle with identity.  Finally the point is coming where it's ok to be solid, to be confident, to lead with intensity and vision.  I always look to past friends, family, business partners to see their progress and match it up to mine.  Am I keeping up?  Have I reach my full potential?  What stratigec moves do I have to make to catch up?

And in all that I realize I'm trail blazing...I'm leading the industry...I'm the one they're keeping up with.  Do they watch my every move like I watch theirs or do they even care?  Am I a fool in believe that everyone else is like me and struggles with the same sins, and disbelief, and pains?  I question myself daily.

Maybe that's why I am successful.  Maybe that's why I have so much tenacity to push the envelope.  I don't know, I don't really think it matters.  What matters is that finding who we are and where we stand, it's elementary but important.  Now that I'm aimed with passion and vision, fully whole, it's time to begin that legacy we all want to live.

I'm standing confident in my failures, my utter disappointments, and my tragedies!  It's in these that I find my identity!  Without these there would be not challenge, no fight, no reason to press on.  Thankfully, I don't run this race solo and so many do...my teammate and total inspiration is that man who did what no other could ever do, He died the death that only He could, all to ransom me.

I love being dependent.  I hate being independent.  It's something that's taken years to change in me but it's much more beautiful to put the burden on a trust worthy friend than carry it yourself.  I'd rather be in the midst of poverty than be among the wealthy.  I'd rather lose everything if it meant I'd gain just one thing.

Jesus truly is all and in all.  Our dependence upon his faithfulness is transformational.  It's spectacular! I'd long to watch him work and move in my life and the lives before me.  When he is given the reigns in our lives only good and perfect things will come.  This I encourage all, press in and press on...in Jesus and in Him alone.