One thing I realize the more I live: relationship and love are more important than anything else in our existence. Having children trust and love you. Knowing they feel incredibly safe when you're solidly leading them. Children, when given te chance, will spend hours and days with their parents if they're shown real love and guidance. It's just all to common for kids these days to be set out on their own just to be thrown to the lions to be devoured by this cruel world. Please, if you have children of any age, give them the assurance that they're important and loved, with reservation. As parents we'll be rewarded! More than loving children the one most intimate relationship is with our spouse. God gives and God takes away, either way we bless His name. Life isn't meant to live alone, either friends, best friends, or our spouses will bring that togetherness we all long for. You'll never be joyful nor happy without the love you can find between two extremely close people. If its on vacation, out to a movie, or to dinner it's 10x's more fulfilling with those who you love and love you back. So in all lifes pains and continual tribulations seek and find those few select people that bring fulfillment to your life. Not those who take and never give back but those that give and bring joy and good things to your life. Living this life alone will be a disappointment, and a life lives with sorrow and loneliness. God desires us to live fulfilling full lives. If we seek after bringing peace to those around you we'll attract people, lovers, like-minded, and amazing people into our live. Amazing people that we can share this exciting and everchanging world we live in.

The big day is here.  July 10th.

There is no greater joy then to see the hand of God, our creator, move.  Today God proved Himself able to do more than I could ask or think.  Today, He caused my disbelief to fail and my belief to come to life!

There are only better days ahead.  Today is a day of victory and celebration.  I will rejoice and be glad in it!!!

Tomorrow, July 10th is a big day for me.  It's been 45 days since I left home.  It's been a long time after living there for 6 full years and only leaving for short amounts of time for vacation an all.  I wish to go back so badly.  Everything in me is dying to walk though those doors again, a different, changed man.

You see I have lived the last 6 years of my life in obscurity.  Total isolation but on purpose.  I've continually pushed away the voice of reason and calling of God to pursue my own fleshly desires,  Desires that so badly need to be fed each and every single day.  I figured the more I live this way to easier it will become.  But I was wrong as most would suppose.

Tomorrow is a day of beginnings.  A day that I get to see the hand of God move mightily and rightly.  God knows my heart, my faults, my deadly sins, and yet He calls me the one He loves.

I am the one Jesus loves.  I am to Him what breath is to oxygen.  The love He has for me is deeper than any love known.  Agape.  Unconditional.  Without understanding.  An amazing love.

He has this love for you.  He waits until you're at the end of yourself to prove it even more so.  It's when we are empty of everything that exists to us that we see His love so clearly.  It's when all has been lost and only death remains that we have eyes to see the glory of His immense love.

The truth, God is love.  It's the one thing I never want to exist without!

Thank you for loving me, I'm forever in your debt.