Oops, I did it again. I got hooked up with my old friend and we really went hard this time. Seriously, came close to OD’ing multiple times thanks to this new partner Fentanyl. The drugs these days are just so good, the mix the makers are creating is better than any high I’ve had in the past and it last for a good while. And death is just so close you can feel yourself slipping away…into oblivion.
Yet, I’ve found myself in withdrawal. This time I’m choosing to go on Suboxone maintenance so I don’t off myself if I slip again. I was too damn close this time to take another chance. And for that it just sucks that I get to this point in life.
So last year, in July I found myself coming off a months long binge and I was decently fine with money and position except I was in a lawsuit and fucked up shit was going down, steeesful. This year though wasn’t as bad but much more sucky. I ended up losing multi-millions in BTC value, like went from 10 million to 2 million. Wtf right! Sucks. Also, I went to some raves and entered into some difficult areas of my shadow. And I almost died like 2-3 times. Full blown car rekt and almost killed others.
Overall, life got way too heavy and I had to chill so I got some China white and made some love. And it was a match made in heaven for about 3.5 months until I started nodding out everyday. My wife got involved and I opened my heart and gave into the deception once again. Thankfully though cause this time I was very close to dead.
I’ve transitioned onto Suboxone this week and had to stabilize on 16mg daily. Big dose but necessary cause I was maxed out on fentanyl. Now, this Monday the judge judges my future. Not criminally but civically. Motherfuckers who stole from me God will repay. Ruined my damn life and I let it happen. I seriously let some sons of bitches into my life, trusted them, allowed them to take my fucking power and I gave it up like a weak little bitch I am.
After a decade of hustling, grinding, creating, suffering I sign a piece of paper which stripped me of my power, my cash flow, my business, and these fucks take over and don’t gift a shit about me or my family. If God is true then may the fires of heaven reign down upon their heads and May the locus eat their carcasses and their families too.
I worked too damn hard to allow others to control my life. So this Monday the judge rules and we’ll see if Gods vengeance will be unleashed. Touch not the Lords anointed says the Lord. Thus your hands be cut off and thrown into the fire!
As for me, I am still breathing and if I have breath I will fight to the death until vengeance is repaid!
