Day 23

I've been trying to plan out my day.  I write in the night before what I'll do all the next day.  It worked yesterday but today I didn't really follow through.  I think listening to the outside voices rather than to my inner voice is what caused me to readjust my plans.

Drug intake today: 10g kratom and some tylenol.

I slept pretty good.  Woke up really early, like 4am due to a bit of ache and pain.  I dosed 2mg kratom and went back to sleep.  I will be lowing my kratom dose daily until I'm down to 1mg and then stop.  It won't be hard to do if i stick to the plan.

It seems the more that I write stuff down, either on paper or online, I have less stress and less issues.  I mean, setting goals and pursuing them are key.  I've reached a lot of my past goals and got to a point of bored.  I stopped setting higher goals.  I figured I made it and now I need to enjoy it.

But what I've found is that doesn't work.  You need intention and drive.

For the next few months I'm going to get clear on what I want and where I want to be.  I've been listening for way too long to the voices all around me.  I never sit and listen to the voice inside of me.  I know that I know what to do and who to be, I just have to listen to that still small voice.